There are things in life really surprising. When I was younger I felt really bad, until I get used to it. And long time ago I was stuck in the idea that I was so right.
A lot of people reached me. I made a lot of friends, to recognize later, all of them were my worst enemies, so I turned into a very reclusive person, considering the idea no one would ever be my friend. I got drunk, I smoked, even used drugs, tried to reinvent myself cause to me all my problems turned my life a mess, only for my fault. But it wasn't, at least, not all of my problems.
When I stopped to act very good to people, they started to think I was a little mysterious, and I guess this is the enchant of friendship. And now, today, I can say that in the last four months I found my best friend forever. Then I stopped to drink, smoke and whatsoever resource to pretend I was someone else, to start meditation, drinking teas, relaxing and using salt scrubs to help improve mood, remove tiredness, and started to use exfoliating creams, and I can say this is really the way.
After meditating and using certain cosmetics I felt a new woman. I'm almost never in bad mood in the morning at work. I don't afford anymore boyfriend talking things like I would never reach the success like him. I don't afford trying to make fake friends happy. I don't have to pretend. And in the end I can say my life is really better than ever, and I got it without help of friends, without help of boyfriend, no one else.
While past times I felt terrible, I almost never, rarely exposed this situation for people. I lived playing like an actor, only pretending bad things couldn't reach me, cause I didn't want to spread weakness to the world. I'm always my world, how a planet can get weak? Well, it just can't anyway. My father teached me since I was a child, to keep demonstrating a waterfall of happiness, even standing in a waterfall of horrible things. Meeting my standards, I would teach my kids the same thing. Nowadays, I still don't have kids.
In conclusion you don't have to turn your life in a cycle of trying to understand why your life is being a mess, lately.
Carry all the things you think is important. It is necessary to compreend that you don't have to expose your fears to strangers, you can really be self sufficient. Trust that you can be your friend.
All your help is grabbed by yourself, and you will discover that you are your whole universe, all of you.
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